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I feel so depressed , I didn’t make it into company apparently. Now, I am stuck taking Teen/Adult classes with chatty people. I swear we almost get nothing done in those classes. Its worse than company with the choreography since its for us older people. It would feel too weird to go back to regular classes. I was so used to those special classes. Regular classes won’t help me improve at all and I hate their cheesy choreography. I won’t be able to do anything cool, so I’ve decided.

I might quit dance

Though, I am not totally sure. They told me they could re-evaluate me over the summer. The thing that made me not made it was I was so shy. I can’t seem to show that I love to dance and they know I do. Its so tough because my past turned me into this type of person. Therefore, I can’t just change in classes over the summer. Its IMPOSSIBLE! I wish I knew what to. Should I wait until after a week or two? I don’t know what to do anymore. Its like I lost a part of me already.

The only thing that made me feel a teeny bit better was that I can be awesome, I just gotta show I love it and it would help my performance greatly. This is a difficult talk for me.

Comments from the previous 2-3 posts & Despair will be returned on Wed. I was playing World of Warcraft the past 3 days.

EDIT: I am planning to give this a week or two of thought. I am still unsure right now.